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Brain & Storms: Weather Magic up a Tree

Okay am not that creative with the title of this blog post…but if you don’t care then neither do I..  What matters is the content right?

I’ve talked in past blogs about my affinity with trees, ons in my back garden and ones out there in the woods.. and I’ve also talked about my excitement for stormy weather..  There was that one time I was by the coast, and I got out of the Bed & Breakfast April & I were staying at…at midnight, and ran to the nearby sea-front..  to experience those 70mph winds ..

But most of the time, nearest I get to during gale force winds and storms ..is the tree in the garden – like today!

I’ve been quite busy with a lot of writing.. few eBooks have been completed and uploaded to Amazon Kindle, but a few more are nearing final form.. but meanwhile the quarterly issue of Gaian Times is now due…so  the work on books have paused, while I put together the latest Gaian Times (so many contributions from 5 brilliant ladies in this coming issue…I;ll say more when it’s launched…later today).

Point is, I have spent quite a lot of time in this last year – sitting in the corner of my room, surrounded by house plants for companionship – day or late nights – (and some of them have been with me for year 10 years…on my desk at Home Office, then on my desk-side at Tamil Welfare Charity project..and now by my side in my room)..  I don;t just sit of course – am writing, writing, writing.

The last time I write like this was back in 1992-3, when I finished my 3rd book of fiction.  And then..  I stopped…until last year (2011).. and now I can’t stop..  I am not in my 20’s but in my 40’s now..and I have the whole experiences and thoughts of the last 20 years to put into books..  fictions and non-fictions..   My brain has not stopped and it affects (in a psychic sort of way) my wife April too.

So it was good today…like any other day of high winds and storms – to get out there, and be up on a wildly shaking tree.  I’ve previously said it’s akin to riding a giant Dragon or a beast (it would have to be a giant, right?).  It’s raining, the skies are gloomy and threatening..   winds are wild…and the tree itself – having still got half its leaves – is waving about crazily with loud howling sounds..  Big branches that are resting on one another do creak …again like some dragon!

No magic wands, or Witchy swords to hold up this time, am afraid..   But I did take my mug of coffee, and sipped it while being up there 🙂

And I let it all go..  all the storms and rage, feelings of anger, and frustrations of injustices done against me in recent 3-4 weeks..  (People have been  telling me to do this for weeks, but it’s not been that easy ..in the face of continuing attacks by some fools….So it takes something as mighty as  Storm’s help for me to `clear mt head’ ).  I just unzipped my aura, let it all hang out like a giant sheet of clothing, waving equally wildly in the storm..  and let the storm brush off all the crap that has accumulated inside my aura – negative energies people have throw my way, psychological shadow projections and more.  There have been darker deeper moments  in the recent past – the cruelty and inhumanity of people who are supposedly spiritual and pagan yet turning into incarnations worthy of being the devil himself has had – at times pushed me to despair I must confess.

Oh, it’s not that I was weak – with Hern the Hunter in my life and a few other deities who shall remain nameless for now, I have never had fear. But I’ve asked Gaia the Earth goddess the question why such cruelty exists within our worlds? And why I must go through such abuse, despite all the heartfelt and genuine services I have given to my families, friends, coven and pagan community – so much of my time, so much of my own money ( never asked for it back), so much of my faith and energies…and still why this return?  It almost makes me wonder about the famous 3-fold law of return that Wiccans and Pagans talk about.  (I now think it’s just a fairy-tale scare-tactics).

And then the answers come flooding..   Yes, I know the psychology of people..  I know the Shadows that lurk in every human..  and wounded inner-children looking for a mother or father to care about them, and if that does not happen, put blames on! And sometimes, just sometimes, people project those on to other people – especially their shadows… and if they have unresolved dislikes of themselves,  that gets projected too on to others – who just happen to be the `right fit’ to carry such a projection – and then it’s easy to hate that person, rather than face the dislikes within.

There are so many of Gaia’s sick children out  there – and they do project such pain and hurt – which is inside them, and it is up to the real Priests and Priestesses to understand, attend to and offer love and healing.

As the storm rages on, brushing all that negativity out of my aura – I just sit up that tree, and sip my coffee..  Sometimes, it is not the case that `As above, so below’   – There is a storm above and without, but below and within, I enjoyed the most peace I have had in a long time! My tingling head tells me magic was happening..:-)

-Mani Navasothy

Psychology & Magic: Know thy Inner-Child

Hi readers, I got to thinking, that for a guy who tags a number of blogs under  Wicca & Witchcraft – and specifically the  psychology, I haven’t really said much on those subjects…and yet, it’s those very realms that my everyday mind is occupied with.    I found this  write-up I had done for one of the modules of the e-Witch Apprentice course.   -Mani

Inner child

We each have an inner-child within us. It is a permanent psychological aspect of each one of us that stays with us forever. The inner child stems from our own childhood days and experiences, and he/ she does not grow! People may think that because it’s a `child’ within us, he/ she is powerless, and harmless. This is true on some level, but not in the way many of us think!

Gaia’s Child (graphics (c)Mani Navasothy 2012

As with any child on this planet, an inner child is powerless  – to fend for him/ herself, and protect him/ herself. But an inner-child is not to be under-estimated as one having no power. On the contrary, our inner-child has more power `over’ us than any other being on the planet! The personality and character of the inner-child can at times over-whelming and all-consuming! The whims and tantrums that our inner-child throws can quite easily take over us and control our actions and emotions.  Effectively, it’s as if the Inner-child is the driver of the adult-person!!

Our needs for security, for love, for warmth, food – and for our mothers  all stem from the Inner-child in us. And so does our need and want for play!  And what’s more, our very creativity stems from the inner-child.

The inner-child does not care about time-tables, schedules, work-loads, deadlines, career progressions, relationships (except one with `The mother’), honour, commitment, altruism or ideals.  He or she just is – pure need,  pure base  emotions, and pure joy!  Eat, drink, sleep & play are his or her only modes, and  the inner-child does not even have self-awareness, or self-identification.  He or she is a pure creature of nature!!

One of the major aspects that govern an inner child is that he/ she – just like any child – has an identity liked and intertwined with the Mother.  When his or her needs are met, he / she is happy and engages in play, and when those needs return, he/ she instinctively wants/ needs and seeks The Mother. And if the mother engages and fulfils those needs  (food, company, warmth, affection), then the Mother is `seen’ as `Good Mother’.  And if the mother does not seem to be fulfilling those needs – when the inner-child wants it (prompt), then the Mother is seen as `bad Mother’.

Mothers can quite quickly go from being `good mother’ to bad mother’ – in seconds, depending on how they did or did not fulfil the inner-child. And of course, if one person is fulfilling the inner-child, then that person – male or female `becomes’ the `good mother’, and elsewhere, another person who did not fulfil the needs of the Inner-child becomes `bad-mother’.

These psychological constructs are projected into our everyday interactions and relationships.  It is not the scope of this brief introduction to go into details, but needless to say,  how we as adults relate to people, leaders, authority figures, lovers, spouses, and even our Gods & Goddesses – are all so intricately tied into the Inner-child.

Knowing `thy self’ is a process, by which, we learn to separate the needs and whims of the inner child away from our `adult’ self, as well as other key considerations (projections, shadows, anima/ animus etc).

In this e-witch Course, we include various practical work and exercises – some of which may seem bizarre and `childish’. However they are not designed for you the adult – and they are aimed at your inner-child!!  For we have learnt through much study, counselling and personal magical experiences – that creativity and true magic flows from the purest of all humans – the child in us!

It is the responsibility of us – the grown-up adults, to become the `good mother’ to our own inner-children, and care, comfort and protect. When those are taken care of, and when we let ourselves play freely, we begin to tap into primal forces of magic!!

(c)Mani Navasothy. 22Feb2012

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Acknowledgement:   Much of these concepts were taught to me by the late Maureen Brown, Counselor & High Priestess of Wicca.  I shall give her due respect in another blog entry.