As much as I like to `resign’ from Life, Universe and the internet :-p there’s just too much crap going on in the world…for me and anyone with Gaia-consciousness to stay on the sidelines and look for Himalayas to retreat to.
THIS is our battle.. to keep the divine faith in our souls, hopes in our hearts, stay cautiously optimistic, unconditionally positive, challenge any and all ill-doings elsewhere and everywhere.. and stand up for a better world – no matter how gloomy things may look.. and how close the Four Horsemen seem to be. This is where our warrior-energies are need… not to fight, to hurt, maim or kill a fellow human..but to put to flight the welling darkness and rising illusions and delusions.
This battle is not fought with side-arms & arrows, mace or missiles – but with patience, endurance, inner strength and a strong belief within.. Doesn’t matter what god or goddess or divine being you believe it…but believe it.. and make him/ her/ it be your peaceful power and strength.. !
The inner child may be afraid.. and throws tantrums, seeking attention. But it is seeking safety, support and love. Not just yours or mine..but all the Inner-Children of the billions of people on Earth! As adults, we can exude positivity, assurance, offer support, emotional acceptance and understanding.
This is the time for all of our Love, light and compassionate, nurturing, empowering thoughts, feelings and deeds to rise to the surface and spread.
“Have you loved, loved someone or something so dearly ..and lost?..” So begins the monologue – something I wrote ..about 11 months ago…at a time when I was nursing my own broken heart.
The lines were for The Doctor – now in a female form, in a minisode that I wrote, directed, filmed and produced. It stars my friend Sandra Tena (published Writer, originally from Mexico) as the world famous wanderer in Time and Space. I think, at the time, Sandra too was hiding an aching heart.. It was a case of two people with similar pains coming together to create art! (Sandra and I are just friends, and remain so.. in case you were wondering..)
The minisode was filmed by the Docklands area in London, way back in January of this year (2014)…but we only aired it on 23rd August (same day as when Peter Capaldi’s new Doctor Who episode aired on BBC TV). Technically, that’s the launch date of `our’ own Fan video series…but full episodes are coming in January 2015 (we just finished filming all 7 stories).
So back to Love then.
I thought about the kind of pain that The Doctor might be feeling..about always loving people..and then loosing them to the passing of time…watching them age and die, or get killed.. or just them giving it up and leaving the life inside the TARDIS. Yes, we’ve seen many glimpses of this sadness that the Doctor contains…and he does contain it.. (how could he not…he’s lived over 2,000 years old.. If he did let it sink too much..his heart will break.. both of them.. Well, I put that line in there too.. 🙂
Sandra brought a real sense of inner vulnerability to that minisode when we filmed it..
And of course, a few days later, she was leaving London…and heading back to Mexico.. In a way that was a bit sad too..
But it gets better 🙂
She left some of her suitcases with me in London for safe keeping.. And she came back to London in July.. and we filmed many more episodes… And guess what…she found Love.. ! And guess a bit more- she found love with another friend of mine.. a guy who was also in my Doctor Who fan production..by the name of Stephen Cole.. (An actor who lives in Glastonbury..) And go on..guess once more.. they met `on the set’ during our filming of his Doctor Who story (yes, we have two Doctors!). And they `got together on `International Peace Day’ ..That was back in September’14.
I hear they are moving in together in 2015.. and going forward in life.. so good happy news..
Well there’s more to it.. Sometimes, when some hearts mend, other hearts get broken.. and that’s life too.. I think another friend of mine ended up with a heart ache.. But wait.. the other friend found love again.. So it’s all okay!! Honest!! 🙂
As for me.. well.. looking back at my own last 2 years ..I wonder if `Am a good man?’ I think I am a fallen Angel.. or a rising Demon.. Am never sure. Broken hearts can create all sorts of turmoils..and personality shifts.. make one bitter, depressed, reclusive, unable to go forward or backwards.. (well, isn’t this a joy…Actually it is to those who follow my blogs.. I rarely write about my personal life.. and often keep to just being astrological, spiritual and all that… So here you get a glimpse…And why ever not…It’s the last day..of 2014…the `Year of I’mPossible Dreams’ that I set off back in January.. How many of those became possible..am not sure.. )
All I can say is…my story is still unfolding.. and am sure a travelling Companion will walk into my TARDIS…I mean my life.. at some point.. Well, for that to happen, I need a TARDIS first… And seeing I partially built one years ago..and then got fed up and burnt most of it.. Yes, I have plans to build a new TARDIS…both the inside console room..and the outside Blue Box..
Then a Companion can accidentally walk into it.. I’ll make sure the door is unlocked..and kept open.. Doors..? Hearts… TARDIS? Life? All same thing.. Have you not figured it out..? Did you think just am not talking transpersonal psychology today? Why would I stop doing that?? 🙂
Have you had a dream or two..or hundreds…of a box, a bed, a room, a ship, a car, a hut or a house? It’s all you..you ..you.. symbolically..! well, same here… Yeap, Psychology ya see!
Meanwhile.. watch this minisode…It’s Brilliant and bitter sweet.. I should know.. I wrote what I felt.. and I know that parts of those tears in her eyes were not acting at all..
-Mani Navasothy (Executive Producer / Director/ Lead writer)
Doctor Who Imaginarium Fan Productions
31s December 2014
Doctor Who Imaginarium Fan productions presents.. starring Sandra Tena as The Doctor in `Love Loss and Life’.
Written, Directed, filmed & edited by Mani Navasothy.
Filmed on location in the Docklands area of London (in January 2014).
This minisode is a character piece that explores the pain and anguish of love lost.. especially for a Time Lady!
Enjoy the minisode.. Our full run of stories start in 2015, with a Prelude called `Lucifer’s Legacy’, and first full story, `Dragons of London’ and then `Shaman’s Game’.
We already have 7 stories to tell..ranging from the final days of the Dark Times of Gallifrey (That wasn’t even its name then).. to raging Cyberman wanting the God Upgrade..and old foes playing with The Doctor’s soul itself.. !! And another thing.. One of those Doctors is not Who he appears to be..!
Doctor Who (c) BBC. TARDIS (c) BBC.
No copyright breach intended. This is an entirely non-profit fan production..by fans for fans..just for fun!!
Cycles seem to come around, same things seem to repeat..but each time we are moving slightly up or down in progress.. and each time, we should try to do things slightly different, to see if energies and life shifts to better states..
At times, others may try to keep us in the same spot, or collapse our life from a spiral to a circle.. Not letting that happen is also hard work.. (in other words, letting people’s expectations and projections getting the better of us..).
Its hard enough each of us having to work on our own shadows, issues and projections.
So let’s make it easy on one another..
Life is not a Circle. Life is a spiral..
Let’s keep moving ..from the deep subconscious prompts onwards and upwards to our higher selves ..