Tag Archives: personal quest

The Thinking Dust

I have no blooming idea who I am.. artist, writer, magician, shaman, witch, Wiseman, trickster, director, producer..blah.. blah.. In the end.. I think I am Mani.. yay.. great conclusion to a long quest, right? Wrong! Even that is a name given to me by my parents (not even the first one.. they gave me another name..and changed their minds and few weeks later went and changed it on the certificate :-p ) So anyway as I often point out.. the magical / witch / shaman names we give ourselves in initiation rituals is a tad bit more of our own choosing than the name we’ve been stuck / blessed with since our birth. (hint: They call it `given name’ .. perhaps all forms we fill should henceforth have ..along with `give name, family name, married name’ another box too.. called `chosen name’ ?!)
blog The thinking dust 12march2018
 
But anyway.. so the only way forward ..is to go backward and clean up all this transpersonal mess.
This is why in esoteric realms, we rant on about `Know Thy self’.. not easy as it sounds..or all these born-last-night-gurus make it out to be. `Know thy Self’ is a quest that can first strip you bare to the bone.. and then some more.. It’s more than just `breakdown to breakthrough’.. !
 
I remember an episode in the old Babylon-5, when Captain Sheridan goes to the Shadow world ..and dies..as forecasted. (`If you go to Zahadum, you will die’) . Then a whole episode came up where he finds himself in a dark cave.. ( how symbolic and womb-like) and with an ancient wise-alien (Lorien the First One).. and the one question Lorien kept asking.. `Who are you?’. Sheridan has to figure this out before he is somehow brought back to life in `our world’.. (self realisation gives birth to identity?!) with some sort of borrowed time.. (spoiler alert – decades later, he goes into space and just sort of fades/ bursts into light).
 
This has stayed with me for so long.. and I marvel at the deeper transpersonal symbology behind it all.. Going into our own shadows and clearing it means we experience a death…because the old self full of shadows changes…(death and rebirth).. The question `who are you’ is the most powerful one of all that kills everything we think and feel we are… till we reach a single simple deeper truth (can’t tell you what that is ..it may be different for you and me).
 
And at our eventual physical death, all that energy locked up in our body is released. Okay when its’ cremation or decades of decay in a coffin below ground.. we don’t see this energy release…But if it were to happen in one moment..we’d see all of our `mass’ transform into energy (light).. After all. it was light (energy) that was transformed into mass in the first place…inside a star.. long before we even became born as humans. (every atom in out body came from something else around us.. food..air..water.. but it can all be traced back to the star where it was created out of energy…cos `we are star dust’).
 
So is that who you are…a thinking piece of Star Dust?
What about before?
 
wait a sec.. !!!
Am I going too far ..too wide..too deep and too long into the past? well.. did you travel with me down this Quantum rabbit hole? Great… ‘cos this was step one of the `Know thy self’!
Now go beyond!!!
 
-Mani Navasothy
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Sleeping in Light – 9 months of camping in garden

Back in August 2015, I began `sleeping in the garden’ for a few days – that extended to few weeks..It was okay because it was summer time..
But then a quest began.. I decided to stay a bit longer and enjoy being connected to nature, mark the cycles, be invaded by foxes, feel storms and rains shake my tent and so on..

Then I thought let’s test myself by being out there for Winter…and it worried me (am the weakling-guy who used to get sick all the time if i got wet or had a small injury)..

Now..well, winter has come and gone.. ! While mother Earth held me and sister willow watched over me, the elements have torn me and stripped me to the bone and soul, and re-built me.

Am constantly aware of the plights of homeless people in streets.. and surely will do something soon about it..

Summer is almost here.. along with a new threat …pollens.. and I’ve become `used’ to being out.. Used to getting, coming into the house, wash and go about my life.but at night finish up.. go into garden..see clear skies, planets (Jupiter is there every night).. see the moon wax..wane and wax again.. and go into my tent…set up candles (around tent) and inside.. put on my chanting music in earphones..wrap up and fall asleep..with gods and magical things in mind!

Slepeing in light- 9 months in garden (c) Mani Navasothy 2016

Yes there have been ups and downs.. moments of solitudes turning to loneliness..but that’s no so much a physical but a mental thing or one of the heart..

This has been quite an empowering thing.. grounding..connecting to nature.. going deeply within to face my own darkness and shadows, tuning into my own energies & power, finding more humility but also becoming more assertive & confident in a quiet way. I have nothing to prove..Am alive..and there are wonderful people in my life.. so many new people and things have entered my life…and much of the old has been reviewed, healed and transformed.. ..and life’s mysteries (and my-Story) is still unfolding..

There is so much to say about all the insights, learnings, ideas, thoughts and revelations that are flooding my hear & mind..  The work is ongoing (for now).  And I’ll share more of it over the coming weeks and months..

Bright Earthly Blessings
-Mani Navasothy

(Gardnerian Wiccan High Priest  & Shamanic Practitioner)

Consorting with Gaia, playing with Light!

Dear all,  it’s been a month since I started to `camp out’ and sleep in the garden.. (yes, through rain, shine and the cold nights now!)

It’s a quest started to declutter my spirit, reconnect with Earth, protect the garden from interfering Neighbours (long story), and to look for the light within..

It’s not a Hermit-quest..because by day I am doing everything as `normal’ as I do…on the internet, attending events, running rituals…etc.   But at night, I retreat to the garden and my tent.. in the sacred space by the tree where I have been doing magical works & meditations for at least 20+ years..

Mani stars

There’s been so many insights, empowering thoughts and ideas flowing through..  Am not trying to capture them all..  Just will see which ones `stay’ in my conscious mind..

Sometimes, at night…I just play with stars and light…here’s one of those nights.. where I set the digital camera on long exposure and play about with a lantern.

Bright Blessings-Mani

(ps. How many stars do you see? Click pic and look carefully wink emoticon )

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