It sometimes puzzles me.. that holistic and spiritual people go out to visit other lands..away from UK, and post revelations, discovery of magic, beauty, art and deep wisdom! Puzzled is a generous word. Irked is the word I would have used. Why do people do that..? Go away to find deeper truths? Isn’t it already here? It could be that when people go away from the norm, they shift internally and become open to both inner and external wisdom. Or that they are reaching that state of inner-shifts, and that is what precipitates their journey to other lands and other places…and their transitions show up more.
One key factor for me is that I’ve always thought and felt how wonderful and deep this land (UK) is..how magical London is.. and how much I gain from it and how my own pagan spirituality has grown and thrives here in UK.
Then it struck me.. that I am not native to this land.. Not only was I a visitor but a refugee arriving in UK some 33+ years ago.. and I am still finding so much magic here. So like my friends who have to leave their homes in UK and go out to far away lands to find wisdom, I have been doing the same.. Just that I never got back `home’… where as those friends will be coming back to UK (well, I hope.. as otherwise I’ll miss them much).
Okay so that’s a bit tongue in cheek of me to say that.. I started by wanting to make fun of the whole situation..but along the way stopped to think..and that in itself has given me a new truth.
That truth is this is my home.. and all I need and want to learn is here.
33 years of exploring and living here is not nearly enough ..so I guess I’ll stay a bit longer..few more decades won’t kill me.. but death will, and like my father and grandparents and a few uncles.. who all came here and died and became part of this land, so will I. That’s not me being morbid or anything. Rather, am just marvelling at how fate has engineered all this.. I was not a seed who fell on the soil of this land and put roots and grew. I was a transplanted little twig.. who put new roots down here and grew into a big old tree (well.. 48 isn’t exactly `young’) .
So here I am today..making a resolve.. embarking on a quest to show more of the spiritual mystery and magical beauty of London and Uk… But Wait..wait wait..! This is no new quest.. it’s been already my journey for decades.
London, UK. 2018