Shot in the chest or a stab in the back? Power-position of a Magical Initiator (or a Rebel Leader)
Have you ever put people through trials and tests, and found you got shot in the chest by them? Those are the best results of the `test’ . Getting stabbed in the back..? That’s a failed test!
Am sure not all will agree with such methods, but being in the public eye and in leadership, initiating and instigating many rebellious social or community ventures, I’ve gone down the routes of pushing and prodding people who are supposedly learning from me or following me into fire and battles.
Remember that a real Fire-alarm test happens when people don’t expect it…and not when everyone knows it’s at 10am on the first Tuesday of the month or something. Likewise, when people come to work with me magically, I usually afford them a honeymoon period of some months. I ask the question..over and over again.. here and there..formally and informally.. and the answer defines the unannounced `real life’ scenario..that an initiatory process threshold is about to be reached.. and to step over it is going to require work and trials and tests..and quests.
Yes in Magical traditions.. there are formal ceremonies and initiations. In my experience.. those are the end-markers of a process… the handing out of a Degree Certificate at a formal award ceremony in a hired Hall. Long before that.. the quests and tests begin..
No formal contrived ceremonies or warnings. Just making use of real life events and opportunities that rise. Some call it manipulation. I call it real life training and initiation by fire… where the stakes are high and wins/ losses are felt for real.. and there are no safety nets, no backups and no resets.
This and more are coming up in detail.. `Beginners Guide to Running Wiccan Covens’ . It’s been a work in progress ..ever since I wrote the other book, `Coven Guide: How to become an Initiated Witch’ back in 2012.
A spider does not keep the same web for weeks! An otter does not build the one dam for ever.
Creative people are motivated by..nay.. driven by an instinct to create.. Other factors may play a part in that process – like whims, wants, needs, projections. But the deeper play is… that is who and what they are – creators.
They consume life’s experiences, thrive in emotional turmoils, observe the order and chaos around them and be moved by it, and get swept by social currents. At times they even seem to drown.
But then they find inspiration – the small log floating in all that torrents.. and they cling to it.. and fund another floating branch..and another.. Before you know it.. they’ve built a floating island around them.. It accrues width and depth..and settles down by the shores and banks.. safe harbour for others.
Sometimes the soul jumps.. back in the waters. Because it hears the call of new islands from the future.
There will come a moment.. where you’ll fall and never rise again.. you’ll lay flat.. eyes closed..mind open.. sounds and sensations old and new.. experiences will flash past.. fast and slow.. faded memories of decades ago will dance..and voices nearby will seem far and strange.. where you are and were…will all blend..
There will come a moment.. as clear as crystal..and as thick as clouds.. loved ones will touch and stroke…and you will not care.. others you never knew will watch and tend to your frail husk.. air will flow in slow and stay.. pushing it out will seem so hard that it will be easy to hold it in.. every beat of your heart will slow.. aeons will pass between pulses..
Beings of dark and light will slide and slither over you.. and you’ll not care.. as you soul will hang by a thread of light between worlds.. your lifeforce will ebb… flutter of wings..tunnels and lights, faces of gods & goddesses you have dreamt of.. all will be there… in the blackness that grows..
you’ll wonder..who you are.. who you were… and all that has gone before.. that has brought you to this moment.. the most terrifying and thrilling moment of your entire life.. as you ease between the threshold between life.. and death..
..and finally.. it will come.. no words will pass your lips.. as you powerlessly pray and fade.. into the ultimate mystery that you have been running away from and towards.. this place..this time.. this moment that you have glimpsed so many times…every night.. and never remembered till now..
..and you finally do..
And your spirit passes..
from this world..
Some stories end..
Sometimes sadness descends for no reasons known..
and shadows just rise and cloak us..and choke us..
MidWinter may have passed and Sun-child may be born..
But we are entering the deepest part of winter..this.. now..
And here we plea to the Winter-Goddess
to loosen her grip on the world..
And here we lament for the passing of the old…
And here, soon we’ll call on the renewed great Virgin
Goddess of Love & Healing to appear from her place of snow and Ice.. unto our world once more,
Lit by a path of light and flames.
And then snow will stop falling..
and snow drops will rise..
the land will turn from grey with hints of green..and yellow..
All that is yet to come..
But.. we are entering the deepest part of Winter..!
Remember the small gaps through which sands of time slip..
Remember too the face of the clown behind the mask..
Remember the tears never seen..
and the bleeding heart of the Knight behind armour..
And sorrows behind smiles..
Okay..I can’t contain this excitement so am going to just blurt it.. Melanie Philippides and I have been planning a set of rather powerful workshops involving.. ( take a deep breath).. snakes! Pythons in fact. She has 2.. and is looking after a 3rd one.. one of them is very large indeed..(twice as big as this one in photo).. whom I met yesterday evening.. for ..shall we say, `getting attuned’ before working on the details of workshops..!) 🙂
I met Melanie first at the Birthday of Goddess Isis ritual by Cleopatra’s Needle, Embankment, in 2013.. but lost touch for a few years but was facebook friends. The photo below was taken at one of Melanie’s snake / fusion Belly dance performance in a venue in Croydon last October’15 where I met her again (and Shiva). We seem to have all that Game of Throne, snakes & Dragons magical explorations in common..and the result now of course are these magical joint workshops..
watch out for full details in a few days.. and then ..book fast…as spaces will be limited!
In deeds may we be noble once more…! ( A Solar Oath):
Good morning all.. There is so much positive, creative, wonderful, affectionate, loving, kind, generous, divine things to be thinking about and doing in the world.. 🙂
Yes there are worries.. and sadly human nature is such that…there is a compulsion and need to want to talk about it. Simmer and fester..and chase our own tails..! 😦 (That’s actually not human nature.. It’s a wounded Inner-child behaviour).
One of the key magical principles.. – even by all that airy fairy quantum probability/ observer/ collapse wave function thingy! – is that what we think and pour energy into starts to manifest…!!
So make it a good thought eh? 🙂 Have a great day! 🙂
Am posting a part of the Solar-prayer/ invocation I wrote/ used at a recent Midsummer ritual:
“Great One of Heaven, Powers of the Sun
We worship thee in thy ancient names
Sooriya, Sol, Lugh, Ra and Horus
Rise up in our skies.. and illuminate our lands
Bring us clear Visions.
Illuminate our souls.
Set free all spirits that seek liberation.
In our dreams, may we soar to new heights.
And in deeds may we be Noble once more.
May our hearts be full of honour.
And may we forever shine in your splendour.”
Back in November 2011, after a particularly negative experience of giving a Pagan / Wiccan interview for an on online Radio, I got home very mixed up and angry – for having been taken advantage again by a Journalist. (I’ve appeared / given interviews for various lot like BBC, Channel 4, Guardian etc..).
That was when i decided the only way to share/ put out my message ..without it being edited out by others – is to do my own work. So as it was a month before the much anticipated year 2012 was coming, I started my youtube channel `Gaian2012′.
It is an Esoteric Channel – with videos I personally make ..about Paganism, Wicca/Witchcraft, Magical Training videos, spirituality, astrology, New age / holistic events, Pagan/ Hindu festivals, Ecology & Environment, protests/ marches, picnics and so on.
I’ve been making videos / editing/ producing/ doing my own features, covering events, interviews etc since then.. Along the way I have been learning so much about digital video / film making, sharpening my editing skills and so on.
Four and a half years on, today, my channel has reached 100,000 views (well, 100, 006 to be exact!). The esoteric / holistic work continues.. but I think I can take a few minutes to mark this happy occasion 🙂
The world gets excited when there are two full moons in the same calendar month, and call it a Blue Moon. But the calendars we we use are arbitrary.. Supposing the first full moon is on 2nd day of a month and next one (blue moon) 31st of same month..and some new government or Emperor decides to re-adjust the calendar.. ? for example say it ends on 30th of that month and next month starts day after? What would have been 31st (same month) will now be the 1st day of the next month.. and what would have been a Blue moon ..now is not!
So I have always disliked anything that goes by man-made calendars! And I prefer stellar cycles and patterns..
So I started coining up / use phrases and concepts like `Astrological Blue moon / true blue moon’ (and even Indigo moon…but that’s about 2 New moons in same sign!)
So tomorrow we have a full moon – in 1 degree in the sign of Sagittarius. Then 30 days later we have another full moon , at 29 degrees in Sagittarius -= which becomes the `true Blue Moon’ !!
That one also happens to be on the eve before Midsummer, when (esoteric) powers of the Sun are at a maximum..
Intuition tells me it’s going to be one powerful (Sagittarius) Blue moon on 20th May 2016.
The good thing about Blue moons..is that we get the energy of the same-ign full moon twice in the same year (and don’t have to wait a whole year for it again). So start doing some magical work (related) on this full moon tomorrow..and complete it 30 days later on the Blue moon 🙂
Dear all, guess what? It’s finally here – The Melanie Ivy – Mother of Dragon fan Video – that I filmed/produced with my friend Melanie!
As some of you know, I have been venturing more into dance / music / story telling videos…(and not just Esoteric / magical videos, features or DrWho fan series!). And this is the latest in that creative stream!
We filmed this over 2 separate days (one in March’16, and one in April’16) in and around parks/ woods in Croydon (South London area). My sister Vathani helped a lot with day#2 of filming & support (when we had to set up a bonfire, as well as look after Melanie’s pet Python Shiva).
The editing took some time..but I did the `Editor’s cut’ (version 1) over a solid 2 day work.. Showed it to Melanie, had ideas and re-edited it (shorter, faster)..and here is the final work.
my big thanks & praise to Melanie (and Shiva the snake) for working hard with me on making this video.. It’s the sort of creative thing I had wanted to do for many years… and here we are!
There’ll be some behind the scenes clips up soon.. But for now.. enjoy this dance-story….and do visit her YT video channel and subscribe!!
Hi all.. Here are some photos taken on my camera.. I was also carrying the dragon so my sister took photos too.. 🙂 If this all appeals to you…click the link at the bottom.. come join our facebook group… and get ready for next year’s 20th `London Pagan Pride Parade’ (in 2017). -Mani