Just saw a post about one friend talking about being `allergic’ to the said community.. and trying to be with her ups and downs.. (<Sometimes thoughts and emotions may come in a flurry and sweep over us, yet what remains is our true essence. We are not broken, we don’t need our chakras aligned, our chords cut and our karma released.. we just need to be present with what is> is a line I liked in her post!).
I confess.. one reason I began to feel (remember ..my POV) distant from a particular spiritual community is because I felt it was always smiles and high. To this day.. when I post my deeper thoughts, processes, agressions.. 99% of one spiritual community of friends..hardly show any like or comment or support.. It’s as if my rawness is not real or perhaps it’s not something they can accept or process.
I see lots of posts of people longing and searching for their twin flames and soul mates.. unaware possibly of passing so many rough diamonds underfoot! I also note, at the mere hint of any flirting .. many rapidly throw in the words, `brother/ sister’ relationship.. 🙂 (I don’t really need any more sisters thanks.. I was born with 2.. I have by wiccan craft sisters of the coven and everyone else..has to have earned that very special bond over time with me to be called a `sister’).
I find the pagan communities (druids, wiccans, shamans, heathens) to be rough, ready, raw, up, down,.. but acceptable and authentic. Because these lot are wearing their hearts & groins on their sleeves 🙂 They wrangle, they gossip, they fight, they make up, they drink (funnily enough ..they don’t all smoke spliffs at gatherings.. they experience the ceremony as they are!)..
So yeah.. am all for grit and mud…and rawness.. and the real authenticity.
ps. .. yes…as we brew towards a Sagittarius full moon, am aware this post is going to ruffle a few feathers..but hey, shooting from the hips is also part of the cosmic Archer’s qualities! An I am one.. So there !
pps. the featured photo is of my friends meeting at a gathering…and each one of them is dear to me..and 100% authentic.
Once in a while I get a person/ friend/ friend of a friend..coming on into my posts/ discussions..and interactions quickly go south! and I end up totally shocked at the accusations they level at me..or indeed at `all men’.
When something propels that fast and out of the blue..and spirals out.. I have to remind myself to pull back and realise it’s really nothing to do with me.. but that person concerned probably has deep issues due to some past negative experiences or conditioning..
(who doesn’t?! I know I have my share of them.. It’s all work in progress – doesn’t mean am going to let everyone take pot shots at me. Am an aware man..but am also a human with my own instincts of self preservations!)
As sad as it is, the men-bashers really should stop projecting their issues on all the men and especially stop looking for `evidence’ that all men are bad, all men are dictators preachers, all men are angry and self-indulgers (words a recent female friend used at me, so am using it as some examples!)
Laws of attraction comes to mind. If you keep looking for any evidence, that becomes your reality and it will keep manifesting..! Science is all about looking for impartial and independent evidence.. (even then.. we have the quantum mechanical thing that we can’t observe a system without affecting it!). And psychology is full of the placebo effects (belief becomes real), projections and transferences..
In short..a mine-field of `mind-mines’! Any one of it can trigger..and explode and cause a messy wrangle..
Navigating through all this..and then trying to get to a truer reality is not easy.. In Fact it may never be possible. (That’s what `Maya’ or illusions is all about.. and only way out is through detachment.. of everything, and the quest for enlightenment and arriving at the feet of Lord Shiva! In short, one can’t be on Earth and hope to be out of reach of Maya…!)
So.. to any women out there into male bashing.. I’d say `please go about trying to truly heal the wounds one or more men may have inflicted on you..’ Because not all us men are bad.. but if you keep thinking that, and keep looking for evidence of that, you’ll find those monsters in all our manly shadows..
Remember Ladies.. there are many men out there who are doing a different kind of work.. Lammas Kings comes to mind. If you don’t know what that is…do look it up.
ps. And ofcourse… `men bashing women’ also has the same problems. Goes without saying.. But I’ll say it anyway.
The whole thing of religious `Them & us’ has come up elsewhere on my wall. It relates in part to the old Witches being persecuted by Christians. So am writing this post (*1).
The inference is that modern wiccans who practices Wicca & Witchcraft as a religious / neo pagan path.. are carrying some old `racially’ suppressed trauma of their ancestors being persecuted..and have an inherent `fear/ dislike/ apprehension/ animosity (take your pick’ or some similar feeling) against Christians!.
Truth of the matter is.. many modern witches and wiccans actually can’t prove their own lineage extends that far to the witches of the old.. I argue that there is no such `racial memory’ and that it’s just a fad..a presumed feeling.. because people love to have just historical clues and reasons for carrying causes.. (we can just believe in a cause and carry it.. we don’t’ need a historical justification or reason or validation).
Being an initiated Wiccan & Witch ( now pushing past 21 years of it..) sometimes I get the feeling I am expected to carry these `party lines’ of the `persecuted witches’.. a feeling of `them and us’ against Christians.
Am sorry to disappoint all.. but as Hindu I grew up not just going to the Temple with my family in my boyhood days, but also to adjacent Christian Churches. In fact we’d pick and choose what Gods we went to to pray for.. One example would be, when i had a strange mole on my finger, i was advised to go to the St.Anthony’s church for 7 weeks and pray, take a bit of salt & pepper, and crawl under the stand where a certain St.Anthony statue was. I did that and the mole disappeared long before the 7th week, though I completed the 7 weeks. It can be said that was my first practice of self delusion, prayer or heaven forbid.. Magic!(*2).
If anything I should have a prejudice against Buddhists..because it’s the Sinhalese people who were majority Buddhists who have caused racial violence against my Tamil / Hindu people..and murdered thousands.. back in Sri Lanka.. I’ve lived through not one but two of those episodes…running for our lives each time.
Yet I do my best to educate myself and weed out any hidden prejudices that may have developed as a result of those direct personal life and death episodes…which in theory should make me hate every Buddhist on the planet. So moral of my personal tale is.. enough of this `them and us crap’ !
I now don’t give a frack about what religion did to what other religion way before my time..
None of the `Witches’ living in our times have ever been persecuted to death enmass for their religions by another.. (save for a few individual harassment cases) .
As someone who actually has been persecuted for his religion, I think my perspective and aspirations should stand higher than these petty them-us arguments. As such, I do not ever want to see it or hear it in my presence from my open minded friends..
If I can be a hybrid of so many beliefs and not explode or go insane…then there is no excuse for anyone else(*3)!
*1: Am NOT a Ph.D in English, and nor do i have to worry about composing a thesis here that’s gotta hold water.. These are just my simple human sentiments.. typed in one go without editing (Thank you Mercury direct!). So please do see beyond the specifics and to the message I am trying to convey..
*2: There are other incidents of Hindu priests advising the family of rope & water magic for finding out lost family dog, and one drunken father cursing someone with water ..and many a sessions with my grandmother who did all manner of potions, lotions, wafting of incense, flames and shamanic spitting to ward of evil eyes, o the local soothsayer lady who went into a trance and channeled Goddess Kali.. and advised devotees.
On the harsher side, I have as a boy just about sneaked a peep at a new Kali temple being consecrated with many animal sacrifices..and seeing their blood run in a small stream past me! (This is why it makes me extremely concerned when people purport to worship Goddess Kali in the west as if she’s some pussycat in their pocket.. Would they do so with the terrible Sekhmet who had an equal bloodthirsty mythical origin in Ancient Egypt? I think not.
*3: Am sadden to hear that there’s even a divide of `Them & Us’ …from a Hereditary Witch’s point of view, towards rets of the Wiccans.
Shot in the chest or a stab in the back? Power-position of a Magical Initiator (or a Rebel Leader)
Have you ever put people through trials and tests, and found you got shot in the chest by them? Those are the best results of the `test’ . Getting stabbed in the back..? That’s a failed test!
Am sure not all will agree with such methods, but being in the public eye and in leadership, initiating and instigating many rebellious social or community ventures, I’ve gone down the routes of pushing and prodding people who are supposedly learning from me or following me into fire and battles.
Remember that a real Fire-alarm test happens when people don’t expect it…and not when everyone knows it’s at 10am on the first Tuesday of the month or something. Likewise, when people come to work with me magically, I usually afford them a honeymoon period of some months. I ask the question..over and over again.. here and there..formally and informally.. and the answer defines the unannounced `real life’ scenario..that an initiatory process threshold is about to be reached.. and to step over it is going to require work and trials and tests..and quests.
Yes in Magical traditions.. there are formal ceremonies and initiations. In my experience.. those are the end-markers of a process… the handing out of a Degree Certificate at a formal award ceremony in a hired Hall. Long before that.. the quests and tests begin..
No formal contrived ceremonies or warnings. Just making use of real life events and opportunities that rise. Some call it manipulation. I call it real life training and initiation by fire… where the stakes are high and wins/ losses are felt for real.. and there are no safety nets, no backups and no resets.
This and more are coming up in detail.. `Beginners Guide to Running Wiccan Covens’ . It’s been a work in progress ..ever since I wrote the other book, `Coven Guide: How to become an Initiated Witch’ back in 2012.
You all know I have a Physics degree/ tech background and into all the multi-media stuff. Am also very much about nature & spirituality..and striving for tech-free time/ balance in life.
Everything is becoming hyper-real and accelerated these days.. What’s the hurry..? where do we have to get to so fast? Mars? Uranus? Death? Reincarnation? Oblivion?!
We are tumbling through our lives, transplanting & embedding our minds and emotions more and more into Cyber realms.. living our lives there too..and forgetting the shadows taking shape in the Collective.. Am not talking hypothetical. Am talking thought-forms, spirits, wraith and cyber-psychic entities (there I just invented a word).
Yes people are supposed to be connected..but NOT to 100’s or 1000’s.. however superficial that might be. At those levels, individuality blurs and gets lost. If that’s what you want..fine.
There’s another danger too!! When any more than 1-2 people gather in a group, a group shadow forms within that small collective subconscious.. and it gets projected out onto its members and outsiders.. One becomes the hero another the black sheep.. Have we forgotten `Lord of the Flies’ that we all read in primary school English?! Imagine the fears, phobias, whims, wants, power-struggles, egos and other secret obsessions within each of our minds..spilling into social media..along side our posts and pictures and status updates…sliding past any obvious `filters’ and privacy settings. It’s all gathering..coalescing..in the darkness of cyber-realms that we can’t see.. And it’s reaching out tendrils to feed.. !
Those of you energy-sensitive must have realised the shifts and tremors by now surely?!!
It is really time to slow it down.. and not fall for multimillion dollar companies’ strategies, marketing and the euphoria of quick adrenalin fixes (event junkies!). Yes I know, the fear is of not getting left behind. The curiosity is in wanting to know everything. But instead of food & drinks ..we are now consumers of pixels and info bytes. It’s feeding mass amounts of useless junk into our minds on a daily basis.. Yes humans have some 80-90% brain space unused. But it;s not a hard drive to be filled with junk.. is it? There are mysteries of the mind that we can be working to unlock.. That all requires silence and stillness ..not more electronic pixellated noise!
So.. take stock now.. as I am.. !! It’s not a static process.. We’re going to have to regularly take stock and balance our cyberlives with physical lives.
ps. I totally welcome real personal relationships and connections. 🙂 Happy to have hours of sit-downs, informal lounging and tons of teas, coffees and wines.
Join us to celebrate BELTANE 2017.. with ceremony & Maypole Dance. We’ll drum, dance and choose a May King & May Queen. And feast and frolic! (sensibly!)
You will not want to miss this.. ! (just look at a few photos (below) of what we did. That’s when our ritual `team’ organically came together. So this year it’s bound to be more festive, more frolics.. and more magic!!
Mayday falls on a Monday and no doubt mny will have coven & other events to attend that whole weekend (Fire festival in Edinburgh, Hastings Green Man festival etc). So we have staggered our own woodland festivities to the following weekend.. It extends the Beltane festivities..and gives all something to look forward to (without clashes) and have a final big event.. !! 🙂
• ***** Fee: £3 per person **
`The veil between the world of men and fairy (or spirit) is said to thin twice a year, at Beltane and at Samhain, which are on opposite points of the year wheel. At Beltane (May eve) the land is at it’s most lush and green, and fertile. If Spring Equinox is the time of fertility and mating in the animal kingdom, then Beltane is one of courting couples making commitment to one another- and Handfastings! In the God-Goddess myths, this is when the playful God is said to commit to the Goddess – which is symbolised by the Sacred Marriage! The Maypole dance that is traditional at this time symbolises the fertile powers of the masculine, penetrating the land, and the ribbons danced and woven around it lock that power! A ring of flower at the tip of the Maypole signifies the feminine. Magical working with the Fay (Fairies) is an important feature at this time, in contrast to the magical work with the departed spirits at Samhain, the opposite point’ (taken from www.WitchcraftandMagic.uk )
Out ritual *Team will conduct key aspects of the ceremony, with plenty of opportunities for everyone to get involved in the actual ritual – ie with elements calling, chants, magical work and so on.
****Fee: £3 per person***
RITUAL items to bring:
– Ritual cloths/ robes/ cloaks / ground sheets / blankets
– Staff / wands / antlers / tribal masks / flower crowns (No athame!! .. No swords!)
– Drums & musical instruments
– Lanterns / candles / lighter (all candles in lanterns only please, unless it’s large pillar-candles. Strictly No tea-lights on ground or trees!!)
– Crystals / runes / divination tools
– Poetry / invocations (learnt or to read)
Handfasting / confirming Pagan marriage vows:
In the past, couples have asked organiser about this. Handfasting is a big event in itself, and we do not wish it to be reduced by being included in a public ceremony as a `side-event’. It also detracts from the focus of everyone else. However, after Blessings of Cakes & Wine (and while still within our magical circle/ sacred space), we may consider couples who are already bonded, to declare their vows / re-affirm their vows by our altar.
**(please message Mani- Wiccan High Priest- in private in advance to arrange this – or simply to arrange your own separate day for handfasting!)**
Adult themes :
As this is a fertility festival, there is bound to be jokes, flirtatious behaviour, adult humour throughout the event..
We ask no children / babies in prams etc to be brought.
Behaviour / alcohol/ drugs policy
This is in a public woodland/ park. We wish to make sure the good reputation/ credibility of our group/ members/ organisers are maintained. So please BE on good behaviour. No drugs/ substances allowed. Anyone found disrupting will be asked to leave.. and in extreme cases, organisers may call the Police for the safety & well-being of everyone else present. Don’t ruin it for all.. Be good! 🙂
Please do not take photos during set-up, run-through or ritual.. Other times, it’s fine. It’s in a public place so we can not stop the public walking through or taking pics. If worries about your privacy / identity, please wear a ritual mask to safeguard your identity in photos that others may take of the group.
Meeting place (Woodman’s Pub):
Gather in the Woodman’s Pub from 1.00pm.. Get to `High Gate’ Tube station.. come up to manin road. Turn right. Pub is just 30 seconds away.
Map (High Gate tube/ pub & Queen’s Wood)
After Ceremony & some socials in the woods, we will head back to the pub (woodmans) for warmth and more drinks/ socials. It all depends on how long we all hang out in the woods with lanterns / candles..
Wiccan High Priest & Founder of London Woodland Witches and Outdoor Pagans.
Our meetup event for this:
Woodland Beltane Gathering & Maypole Dancing 2017
Sunday, May 7, 2017, 2:00 PM
Queen’s Woods Near Highgate Station London, GB
59 Woodland Witches & Pagans Went
Join us to celebrate BELTANE 2017.. with ceremony & Maypole Dance. We’ll drum, dance and choose a May King & May Queen. And feast and frolic! (sensibly!)You will not want to miss this.. ! (just look at a few photos (below) of what we did. That’s when our ritual `team’ organically came together. So this year it’s bound to be more festive, m…
The FRIENDSHIP TEST on FACEBOOK: (aka The EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL).
This sort of thing does the rounds..like gypsies selling their aluminium wrapped paper flower and asking for money, or chain letters that say God & Angels saved them but will curse if you don’t spread it to 29 people…etc..
We HATE these friendship tests about `who’s reading my status’ and `copy this, leave 1 words etc.
NEWS FLASH.. facebook decides whom it shows your status updates to.. So fact is, probably less than 30% of your `friends’ see your status updates ..(the rest of your friends don’t even know you are testing them!!).
And of you were thinking that ..well…your friends should mark your account for `give me notifications’ – think again. We’ll be needing 36 hrs a day to catch up on all of our friends’ status updates.. and liking, sharing or responding to them all.. .and we will never go to work, never sleep, never have sex, never do gardening..never vote and so on..
So here’s the deal…Wise up people…STOP posting those silly tests….!
Post an actual silly joke ..or a video of a kitten licking a fur blanket…or a gif of a grass hopper jumping into a cup of Soup (sorry, don’t know where that came from…probably from the lawn).. those might actually get a response from your other friends.. !!
And if you – like me – are one who gets annoyed and feels torn and partially inclined to respond but don’t like to….well, here’s your salvation trick – You know how the USA & UK governments have a policy of non-compliance to any terrorist demands.. ? Well, adopt same policy for self.. Don’t oblige any Emotional Blackmailers!
And if you are a friend who – for whatever difficult life reasons – wants to test your friends… here’s a bit of advise..
Friends don’t test friendships!! If you do plan to, it is more likely that …your friends will unfriend you…if they are anything like me, who has that `non-negotiating with Blackmailers’ policy!!
“Have you loved, loved someone or something so dearly ..and lost?..” So begins the monologue – something I wrote ..about 11 months ago…at a time when I was nursing my own broken heart.
The lines were for The Doctor – now in a female form, in a minisode that I wrote, directed, filmed and produced. It stars my friend Sandra Tena (published Writer, originally from Mexico) as the world famous wanderer in Time and Space. I think, at the time, Sandra too was hiding an aching heart.. It was a case of two people with similar pains coming together to create art! (Sandra and I are just friends, and remain so.. in case you were wondering..)
The minisode was filmed by the Docklands area in London, way back in January of this year (2014)…but we only aired it on 23rd August (same day as when Peter Capaldi’s new Doctor Who episode aired on BBC TV). Technically, that’s the launch date of `our’ own Fan video series…but full episodes are coming in January 2015 (we just finished filming all 7 stories).
So back to Love then.
I thought about the kind of pain that The Doctor might be feeling..about always loving people..and then loosing them to the passing of time…watching them age and die, or get killed.. or just them giving it up and leaving the life inside the TARDIS. Yes, we’ve seen many glimpses of this sadness that the Doctor contains…and he does contain it.. (how could he not…he’s lived over 2,000 years old.. If he did let it sink too much..his heart will break.. both of them.. Well, I put that line in there too.. 🙂
Sandra brought a real sense of inner vulnerability to that minisode when we filmed it..
And of course, a few days later, she was leaving London…and heading back to Mexico.. In a way that was a bit sad too..
But it gets better 🙂
She left some of her suitcases with me in London for safe keeping.. And she came back to London in July.. and we filmed many more episodes… And guess what…she found Love.. ! And guess a bit more- she found love with another friend of mine.. a guy who was also in my Doctor Who fan production..by the name of Stephen Cole.. (An actor who lives in Glastonbury..) And go on..guess once more.. they met `on the set’ during our filming of his Doctor Who story (yes, we have two Doctors!). And they `got together on `International Peace Day’ ..That was back in September’14.
I hear they are moving in together in 2015.. and going forward in life.. so good happy news..
Well there’s more to it.. Sometimes, when some hearts mend, other hearts get broken.. and that’s life too.. I think another friend of mine ended up with a heart ache.. But wait.. the other friend found love again.. So it’s all okay!! Honest!! 🙂
As for me.. well.. looking back at my own last 2 years ..I wonder if `Am a good man?’ I think I am a fallen Angel.. or a rising Demon.. Am never sure. Broken hearts can create all sorts of turmoils..and personality shifts.. make one bitter, depressed, reclusive, unable to go forward or backwards.. (well, isn’t this a joy…Actually it is to those who follow my blogs.. I rarely write about my personal life.. and often keep to just being astrological, spiritual and all that… So here you get a glimpse…And why ever not…It’s the last day..of 2014…the `Year of I’mPossible Dreams’ that I set off back in January.. How many of those became possible..am not sure.. )
All I can say is…my story is still unfolding.. and am sure a travelling Companion will walk into my TARDIS…I mean my life.. at some point.. Well, for that to happen, I need a TARDIS first… And seeing I partially built one years ago..and then got fed up and burnt most of it.. Yes, I have plans to build a new TARDIS…both the inside console room..and the outside Blue Box..
Then a Companion can accidentally walk into it.. I’ll make sure the door is unlocked..and kept open.. Doors..? Hearts… TARDIS? Life? All same thing.. Have you not figured it out..? Did you think just am not talking transpersonal psychology today? Why would I stop doing that?? 🙂
Have you had a dream or two..or hundreds…of a box, a bed, a room, a ship, a car, a hut or a house? It’s all you..you ..you.. symbolically..! well, same here… Yeap, Psychology ya see!
Meanwhile.. watch this minisode…It’s Brilliant and bitter sweet.. I should know.. I wrote what I felt.. and I know that parts of those tears in her eyes were not acting at all..
-Mani Navasothy (Executive Producer / Director/ Lead writer)
Doctor Who Imaginarium Fan Productions
31s December 2014
Doctor Who Imaginarium Fan productions presents.. starring Sandra Tena as The Doctor in `Love Loss and Life’.
Written, Directed, filmed & edited by Mani Navasothy.
Filmed on location in the Docklands area of London (in January 2014).
This minisode is a character piece that explores the pain and anguish of love lost.. especially for a Time Lady!
Enjoy the minisode.. Our full run of stories start in 2015, with a Prelude called `Lucifer’s Legacy’, and first full story, `Dragons of London’ and then `Shaman’s Game’.
We already have 7 stories to tell..ranging from the final days of the Dark Times of Gallifrey (That wasn’t even its name then).. to raging Cyberman wanting the God Upgrade..and old foes playing with The Doctor’s soul itself.. !! And another thing.. One of those Doctors is not Who he appears to be..!
Doctor Who (c) BBC. TARDIS (c) BBC.
No copyright breach intended. This is an entirely non-profit fan production..by fans for fans..just for fun!!