Our psyche in knots: Remembering & releasing our Dead .!
Moon in Cancer today… so it’s not surprising to see some posts here from few friends.. someone’s father died few days ago and she is having an astral farewell. someone else is suddenly remembering her mother passed away 4 years ago this time. And someone else is trying not to remember when their mother passed away.. around this time.
All these are painful.. and those memories stay deep within our psyche, getting buried deeper and deeper each passing year.. and causing the individuals discomfort, trauma, inner pains…. if they are not `opened up’ and eased, faced and released.. !
Am not at all being all `wise’ or `preachy’ . I know this pain very well. After my father died in a road accident, I went into some denial mode ..(slotting into `man of the family’ mode). Gave up University residence..moved back home .. The first 2 years were fine.. then my University grades started to drop..fails..repeats.. even an actual kind-out. I was not into parties, no relationship during the entire university time.. Just small stuff.. fitness, writing novels, painting.. yet life went down down down.. I missed my father much (though the end of his year was not good at home.. fights etc due to his flaws). But so many regrets.. I’d look at this funeral photos regularly and privately..(would not show it to mum or sisters but I’d be reliving it.. again and again).
This went on for almost 5-10 years!!Through it all, my spirituality took a dive. I became anti-religious.. then suicidal due to all my educational failures.. and somehow pulled through and found pagan spirituality.. and life started a positive upward spiral.. (and here we are).
I recall a point where I said enough was enough..and sealed his photos.. threw away some of his small precious possessions..(Only kept his broken wrist watch that had stopped at the time of his crash/ death and one ball point pen.. that I had placed in his hands for a short while in his coffin! Oh believe be I got dark in those years that people can not imagine.. After seeing some tribal film, I even thought I might drink his ashes in water!)
My Life only took off for me, after I released my father’s death from my psyche. I had thought to finish his life’s work.. his scholarly studies.. his Phd.. but then finally chose that I have my own work..and life to live.
In case people don’t know.. I was 5 years old when I saw my grandfather pass away.. and while his body was in the house for few days in a open coffin.. I lived in that house.. and played as a boy. My uncles and aunt kept me busy (mother was far away having just had my 2nd sister and was with her parents.. Father was busy with whatever her needed to do.. I only remember my uncles and aunt keeping me busy those days..)
Since then I have seen many relatives pass away before me.. As priest, I’ve even performed `pasing rites’ to terminally ill comatose loved ones.. and they then passed within hours.
As much as I don’t like to.. death defines my life.. (and this is perhaps why when it comes to do Dark Lord / veil stuff in pagan rituals for autumn/ samhain.. my energy clicks in fast and deeper than anything else).
I chose few years ago to click into Life.. and only `open up’ the Dark Lord energy in me at very specific seasonal times.. And as The Doctor (who) once said, `the name we choose is a promise we make to be who we are’…. and it’s no coincidence that the name I have currently on facebook (Mani Morningstar) is chosen for this time.. I may keep it or I may change it in a few months.. we’ll see how far I need to work that energy ..for my self and for the world. I don’t preach ..well I do..but with a lot of explanations.. like this one, so people know where I am coming from.. Not from a metal egocentric place of power and control.. but from a heartspace of compassion, empathy and love to want to help others in inner-turmoil.
If I can help.. I will do my best.Even if I or anyone else can’t help you.. YOU should go deep within.. (like the late Maureen helped me do in pathworkings and meditations back in 2001-02) to those key issues of loss of a parent.. and face them.. and resolve them. (I once cut of the head of my own father in a pathworking.. That was not malicious.. it was resolving a sub-personality or an energy that had consumed me for so long).
so take what you `Will’ from this.. and make your inner-samhain journeys… Don’t let the beloved-Dead sleep long within you and leach your energies and powers and live as zombies and vampires within your psyche. Let them go with love and light.. to the divine.It frees your heart to love again.. your self..and others.
Back in 2001, when I was an Elected Equal Opps officer in the Home Office Union, we had a period of internal committee wrangles.. lots of frosty faces, and many internal e-mails flying about. Accusations, counter-accusations. Justifications. Rights and wrongs. And on one side the President, Vice President, Treasurer, and about 10 others…and on the other side was just me, and my mentor/ Branch Secretary Peter R.
Peter would say to me, `Mani, we are here to serve the members. So just do your duty to them’ And it took so much effort for me to park my ego aside, ignore the taunts by other officers, and keep working only on members’ cases!
Funnily enough, about the same time, as a newly made Wiccan High Priest, and a coven-free wiccan, I ended up as a Guest at the late Maureen’s coven.. and was eventually made the Coven High Priest.
And I can tell you …it’s not easy being part of an existing coven of super-transpersonally trained Witches, let along being their coven HP. Once there was an internal `trial by fire’ period that lasted 3 weeks (every Friday).. where I was throwing my `authority’ about, and Maureen and the whole coven spent hours and hours talking and debating and discussing with me.. (Ritual kept getting postponed 3 weeks in a row). Each Friday we’d gather at 7pm and the talks went on till early hours…Exhausted we’d either sleep over or go home.. at 2..3..4..5am and next Friday gather again..and it would carry on. None of us ran away.. None of us disrespected one another..but they all stayed…to help me understand some fundamentals.. of how to become a Good coven leader! And its never about exerting authority or teaching the highs and lows of magic. It’s about serving!!
In the end I learnt a valuable wisdom.. that a Coven leader does sit on the tip of a pyramid.. not at the top like a boss stepping on Initiates below. But the inverted pyramid tip at the bottom.. holding the weight of the entire coven and all the members.. and serving them!!
I once tried to offer my 1-2-1 ritual help to a wiccan and was told that am being possibly divisive and power-over. Another time a wiccan wanted my sword, and then wanted me to fight her. When I backed off, I was told by Maureen that I had dishonoured the member.. and as HP, I needed to heed her wish and battle her so she can work through her own issues ..
Coven running is never easy. Looking after initiates and trainees is never straight forward. Each person and indeed each event/ situation is unique.
And we struggle.. we struggle on and on .. to do what I often say.. `the right thing’ !!
I pick just these mere 2 situations to make a simple but profound point. That Since those days..I have worked really very hard… to serve!! Be it Pagans who contact me or wiccan initiates or trainees. Along the way, I have had to make sacrifices.. it has even once cost me a relationship.
And here I am again.. with a number of Wiccan initiations in the horizon, juxtaposed against the well-being of my personal life, the interest of family, partner, other initiates and more.
It’s painful at times.. times when the timing of crisis is never good.. Times when we have to put aside our breaking hearts and taunted minds, and reach for inner truths guided by our gods…and do the `right thing’. Yes we all agreed at our initiation that “we are willing to suffer to learn” but sometimes.. it’s just a near impossible situation. No one else will understand.. and everyone will try to criticise you or pull in different directions and loyalty-battles.
Do you know what… ? I’ve had this for over 20 years in my role as High Priest. This is not the first time… and this won’t be the last time. And I marvel at the Elders of The Craft who have been doing it for 30.. 40.. 50.. 60 years.
In Wicca, at initiation, we gain 2 titles.. Witch & Priest / Priestess. At first it may seem like some cool titles.. that we can flash about for added credibility on social media or some TV interview. BUT those titles come with heavy responsibilities.. The first part (Witch) is a magical one.. The other – `Priest / Priestess’ is one of service! Serving our Gods & Goddesses, serving people.. and serving the land.! In the 2 decades of my time as High Priest, since those Maureen coven days, I’ve never ever forgotten that.. !
The World is in the grip of Corona-virus pandemic ..and the people are weighed down by those fears…of death! That it might get a loved one or a friend..or themselves. But as any ritual magician knows, being immersed in certain thoughts obsessively can actually end up manifesting that very thought as real. That after all is the `Secret’ of the `Law of Attraction’ .
So how can we negate this fear-inducing obsession…and how can we bring about positive manifestations at this time?
The answer of course is .. Life! Life is all around us.. Use it. Work it.. work with it.. work with the positive creative forces of life and nature!
In this motivational video blog, Mani Navasothy – Esoteric Author, Pagan Teacher and Wiccan High Priest – will explore these negative and positive ideas.. that can help you stay well.
It really is a case of following all the government guidelines, AND, having your own power of mind over matter…in easy steps.
ps. Do Share this with those who believe in Manifestations, `Secret’ and `Law of Attraction’ …cos us Wiccans have a good grasp of Nature magic!!
“So.. people are clapping….. 8pm on a thursday…3rd week in a row..
where people are clapping for the NHS staff.. ”
Last week I was doing gardening.. and heard the sound of clapping..
and I was overcome by an overwhelming feeling.
“..I thought about why.. we are clapping..
I know we are showing our appreciation for..
the NHS staff and all other staff..
and all the people working to keep Life going in the Country..”
“..All of us.. every single one of us is affraid..
..scared shit out of our minds..
and we are scared of Death!
That this disease (coronaVirus) might catch us..
or our loved ones, or our friends, or us..
and we might die..!
..We’ve been told to stay indoors.. in the safety of our houses..
lot of people are doing it.
literally holding on to our lives.. in our houses..
..and hoping that the medical staff of the country will save us
literally our lives.. all of our lives.. are in their hands.!
You might not feel like that.. but…
if anything happens to any one of us..
we are really want to go to the hospital..
and be at the mercy of one of these Medical staff members..
and we hope they are going to look after us…
and save our lives..!
And it is that scary
and it’s that thought
or lives.. every single one of ours.. depends
in the hands of the medical staff at the moment..
because we don’t have the capability to keep our selves alive
if something bad happens to us..
Hopefully it doesn’t..
I think if we really examine the deeper feelings..
it’s that overwhelming sense..
of charity that we want..
the fact that we are at the mercy..
of not just whatever is happening in the world but..
at the hands and mercy of the medical staff..
that we will deped of them to save our lives..
That is very scary and it’s a very dependant state
. An that’s why there’s overwhelming feeling
to know that each one of us feels it
whether we are aware of it or not
So when we are clapping
I suppose we are pleading to medical staff
to keep working
to keep us safe..
and to save us.. if that happens..
Those are my thoughts..
as to why we are clapping..
And it’s quite overwhelming feeling to know that..!
The world is reeling with thousands of deaths as a result of the current Corona Virus pandemic. No one is beyond reach of this virus.. Every aware human is facing this fear of death! Scientists & Health service professionals are beyond busy – doing their best to save lives and stop this pandemic. Many nations are in lock down to stop the spread of the virus. So what are we …Pagan priests & priestesses doing to help? Are we any good to anyone if we feel crippled by our own fears, shadows and the dark that’s lurking in human collective at the moment..? I have some reflections on these matters..and what we Priests & Priestesses should be doing! -Mani
Shadows shitting & maladjusted Magicians dancing !!
(aka. get your head sorted before you do magic and hurt anyone).
Divorce, splits or separations are hard and emotionally chaotic for anyone. In my experience ..anything that ends badly has a fall out on friends and families connected to the people. More so for magical people connected to magical groups or communities. I’ve seen elders who have been together for decades and then split and one party gets all crazy and abusive….leaving the rest of us utterly shocked..!!
One such person was even heard to have said he suspected me as some opposing force and hell-bent on cursing me.. He possibly did.. There also followed (independently..or perhaps connected) some other nasty online bullying by other magical / pagan people I had known. It was not a happy time in my life.. Many things fell apart.. I almost lost my credibility…many communities…and much more. All I could do was appeal to my Gods for Justice.
Years later..I have heard that justice has been served.. All those who had bullied me at that phase of my life have had their lives unravelled.. Some fled the country on other issues. Some lost their acquired riches…some suffered splits…Some turned in on themselves and became shambolic.
They may have cursed me hastily..without knowing all the facts…that does not make them innocent! It makes them magically irresponsible and emotionally stupid. I on the other hand was the innocent who suffered,.and wisely I only appealed to my Gods.. I did no sit down and curse anyone in return. I would never risk that.. without knowing all the facts.
Before anyone gets all hot-up, let me say again.. that I did not do any magic. I live by magic.. and truly by my gods. I don’t pretend values and ideals like some do and get hypocritical behind the scenes ( like those people did). I merely spoke to my gods and called for Justice. Gods took their time..but justice was served.
I’ve learnt much since those days.. My own magical knowledge and skills has grown since my nappy-naive days of 2012. These days, anyone accusing me of anything should be very careful of what they are saying. Be sure of your facts.. Be equally sure of your own sanity.. Don’t go chasing shadows and project them on to me.. or anyone else. I do not take kindly to that kind of shit anymore. I follow my own ideals, heed my own gods, and warrior-priest codes. Am a Priest if you want my spiritual help. Am a warrior if you try to claw me down! Simple! (It took me decades to work this truth out..that I can be a Priest and a Warrior).
Another word of wisdom:
Too much magic without Earthly practical grounding can imbalance the mind. Your own Shadows will run amuck and grow and take you prisoner. You will loose your judgement. you will accuse others of taking sides ..rather than seeing others as trying to help a vulnerable 3rd party/ persons. You’ll see everyone who does not agree with you ..as `friend of your enemy’ … and if you are a (maladjusted) magician / witch/ wizard, you may even do some unkind / dangerous magic to attack someone else.. where by you are attacking an innocent individual…!
I say one thing for anyone falling down this kind of shadowy path – “Frack-off off and get your heads & hearts sorted.. ! And until you do, please take your selves off any public positions of authority you hold…”
Author Teacher Wicca-Priest
ps. recently an old Witch friend who is going through a messy split tried to draw me into their issues. It prompted me to write this. But the matter can also apply to other people in power / authoritative positions who are using their community platforms as personal propaganda platforms. Not cool!
Few weeks ago, one attendee came up to me and said that someone outside of this meetup – had claimed they were the ones who trained me (Mani) in wicca. I did not know whether to burst out laughing or take my magic wand and smite them!! :-p
The following is a direct e-mail message I have written to all the members of my meetup group `London Woodland Witches Wiccans & Pagans’ . A copy is being blogged here for info purposes.
I’ve been in the work of creating magical community events, running rituals, covens, training etc for over 2 decades now. My lineage is strictly Gardnerian, and I studied Wicca ..originally in WSG- Wiccan Study Group – run by world renowned Wiccan Author/ Psychologist / Wiccan High Priestess Vivianne Crowley & her husband / High Priest Chris Crowley. I’ve also been trained by and worked with the late Maureen Brown (High Priestess & Counsellor/ Therapist), and I have been mentored by the late Jean Williams (another of the great Wiccan Elders). Other elders (Laura, Mike, Rufus, Melissa, Caroline) have trained and coached me much over the years. Morgan, Heather and April have been my magical partners in the past.
Since my own initiation in 1996, then my reaching 2nd degree/ High Priest status in 2001, I have trained wiccans, initiated others and run several covens in the past. I have also been running outdoor/ woodland rituals in London since 2004.
On a wider level, I have 2 decades of connection with The Pagan Federation in various key Organiser roles (PF London Events Organiser for 7 years, now PFL Media Officer), and I am well-known to Wiccan Elders in UK, and to Pagan communities & organisations in London & Uk. (Owners of The Atlantis Bookshop, and Treadwells Bookshop know me well!).
I am trained in Transpersonal psychology & Counselling skills, and I work to empower everyone using these magical events that I run.. and indeed via any interactions/ conversation opportunities I get. Am quite know n for making personal disclosures when making real-life points..if it helps others. I do not ever hide behind fame names or abstract / 3rd person conversations. Those are my strengths..not weaknesses. (Not everyone can pull that off and still run a decent magical ritual – and work hard and earn the appreciation of those attending).
Now to the rumours– I have never been trained by anyone else other than the people I have stated above.. and have no connection whatsoever with any Traditional, Cochrane or other lines. Anyone else claiming to have trained me or magically worked with me is simply seeking their own fame or authority ..via my own 23 years of hard work, and should be taken with a pinch of unconsecrated salt..to be thrown out of a magic circle. 🙂
Until now (5 years of running this meetup) I have **never** needed to write something as direct or extraordinary as this message… I’ve simply let my hard work and my ritual team’s hard work speak for itself. People come… enjoy our events…speak highly of it.. Some stay and chat and become friends. Others find other friendships. and they go home. And tired but happy, the me and my team goes home too!! . (Running events for the biggest most active wicca/pagan meetup is never a walk in the park! It;s more a crawl in the woods!! 🙂 That’s that. No grand plans.. !! I am certainly not into testimonials, TV interviews ( i reject so many), fancy over the top costumes, photo shoots, aggressive or underhanded recruitment tactics etc etc.. but recent events have made me realise it’s time to address this matter…set some records straight . And I now have!
If you have any questions or concerns…well.. you don’t need to bribe my team mates to get access to me… You already know my name.. You know my events and where I’ll be.. and you know my e-mail. And some of you even know my number! So..come find me..and we can talk ..face to face.. down to earth!
And if anyone approaches you with my name/ my authority…just walk away. They are NOT legit. Because I do all my own work..writing emails.. and communications.
ps. In another e-mail I will be writing about wicca training coven we are setting up, and some group boundary issues…that some people are blurring . There are those who keep enjoying my kindness ..wisdom and hospitality….and then vilify me elsewhere.. Time has come to set those matters straight too!
Fall Jack of London, and the (re)birth of Mani!
(an amusing account of Pagan Pride Parade London 2019)
At first look, it brought everyone a laugh, and at 2nd look it made me feel a bit disappointed – that after all that dancing on Church steps, Jack of London was fine…but some dancing with ladies in the fountain ended in the fall of Jack.
And at 3rd look, as I sat in the garden sipping coffee, the whole magic of it finally sunk in…! It was no a fall ..but a watery birth..for me!! And Jack of London is now ehhh ..my `mother’ 🙂
A full week before Pagan Pride Parade London 2019, I started to make the `Jack of London’ (that’s the name I’ve given him..as he’s not quite a full Jack..nor a full horned god..both are seen in him). As any serious magicians would do, I did a quick tarot reading for the significance of this `Jack’. I drew 2 cards.. one his significance in my life, and one..his significance for people of London..as he is supposed to be heading the parade. got The Tower fr me, and Chariot for Londoners. And I was quite happy with it..though had no idea how it was going to unfold.
And I spent the next 6 days and nights making the Jack that can be lightweight and easy flat-pack to carry by me in trains/ tubes..but also had to be quick and easy to assemble …and must be good enough for both me and Ian to carry..as I had already asked him to help. (he is always partially carrying other Jacks in other festivals..so I wanted to give one with his name on it..and one designed magically with him in mind as much as me..).
On the day all went well.. (well..I finished Jack by 5.30am that morning…had 3 hrs sleep and was at Russell square by 11am to start assembling him. My Rochester Witchy friends came to visit. Reggie bought me coffee. Long missed friends Peter & Hannah came to say hi..and many others. It started to get crowdy..and i moved away to focus..
My partner Louisa arrived 10 minutes to spare.. after settling her 3 kids with babysitter. So no time for making her a beautiful crown.. or one for me.. it took 30 seconds to twist some ivy and willow from my garden and make us quick crown. Magic won more than magnificence or pageantry. Clock was ticking,.
Then came the parade.. Louisa & Rachel kept Jack’s sides from hitting things.. Ian led Jack…so through a small window..from inside Jack.. I could just about see his head..and had to trust him .. and follow…in the streets of London.
What a thrill and joy it was.. dancing freely, shagging trees and lamp-posts, Jack went on his merry ways of fun and frolic. (he is a symbol of fun and fertility and magic.. I had no control of him…he even went up on some church steps and danced..and tried getting in the road and smirk at buses and people).
For a third of the journey in the middle of the route, from Atlantis Bookshop to Treadwells bookshop, my (Hern’s Tribe) Tribal brother Ian carried the Jack in the streets.. and I had the honour of carrying his sacred Bridie doll.. (that has magical echoes in this tale too..as you’ll see). And my partner Louisa carried Ian’s special staff with a Hare on it.. (fertility anyone?!)
Then the return to fountain..and dancing..
And I was initially not going into the Fountain. I didn’t know if Jack was going to peel off his paper-mache face in the water But he did go in.. nudged and pushed by a bevy of pagan maidens wanting to frolic with him.. (disclaimer: any ensuing pregnancies are not the fault of Jack!!
Then from inside I could feel water gushing up all over me.. and pressures in different directions…and I could feel me slipping..(Jack is heavy and bulky.. and at best of conditions hard to carry / manage…,so imagine in a fountain with all those people pushing and pulling..and the water too..playing its forceful part).
I had a choice of resist and get hurt..or trust and let go.. I trusted and let go and fell.. Lucky no bamboo broke and pierced my legs or my heart (note t self: Health & safety assessment next year on carrying Jack!)
And David and others seem to have caught the fall of Jack in the fountain..
Looking at this photo and mulling over it.. a remarkable and amusing realisation came over me.
It was Jack of Green who fell.. and aided by a few ladies and gent, I was pulled out.. The whole thing happened in the Fountain… It was a magical watery birth..by any other name..and right out in the open, in front of all those Londoners. 🙂
Jack stood up and stayed in the fountain a bit longer.. then dried up in the Sun…recovering from all that birth pain no doubt.
As for the question of paternity… I created Jack with greens and Antlers..after my God Hern and Green man. and Jack rebirthed me.. I am father and the Son..and Jack is Son and mother. Yeah …bit complicated..right?
That’s paganism for you. 🙂
**Request: Please do not take or quote anything out of context. Please read fully **. Context:During early morning Easter sunday service on 22nd April 2019, 6 churches in Colombo, Sri Lanka were bombed. Over 200 people have died. It is reported that a Islamic terror group is responsible for it. Few days on, it’s sunk in, and the following is my rage, slowly being brought under control.
So last night… may be because Pluto retrograde has started ..or maybe I finally had a moment of stillness for matters to sink in – I got very angry! Angry does’t even cut it.. I was enraged.. and bordering on utter racism, prejudice and hopping mad to start my own religious hate/ war!!!!!.
What’s triggered this? well ..the matter of many churches in my homeland..nay home town ..being blown up by some terrorist factions operating in Sri Lanka… potentially the Islamic terror group.. That’s what triggered it.
I mean the Muslim population is a tiny minority in Sri Lanka.. far below the Tamil minority .. If 50 years of guerilla fighting by Tamil Terror groups wasn’t going to give Tamil separatists a state of their own, what possible chance is there for an even smaller minority to engage in such acts?
I can only conclude that it’s not instigated by people internally but by outside forces…militants hell-bent on trying to cause more wars, more deaths….all in the name of Allah and Islam.
“Death to all muslims!” – That was the raging reaction I felt last night.. for starting a terror campaign in a tiny tropical Island that has been dealing with its own internal racial shit for 50 years…the result of which was why my family & I ended up as refugees in UK some 35 yeas ago.
Sri Lanka is not the America that’s bombing Muslims in Syria or another Islamic country. Sri lanka has no international influences or wealth or power. As I said Sri Lanka is just a tiny little island with its own problems. It poses no threat to Islam or muslims!
The only war that’s been going on there was the racial one between Tamils-Hindu minority and Sinhalese-Buddhist majority! That ended in 2009.
Now the bombing of Churches – begins a new war fueled by rage and retaliation, despair, feelings of injustice and more.. The Christians have done nothing to anyone in Sri Lanka.
So when the church that I used to go and pray in, in my childhood days is bombed (and yes I am a Hindu but I am happy to be talking to Christian gods too….have done since my boyhood days)- it strikes a deep root..a nerve.. and suddenly, the war is at my doorstep.
I’m reasonably clever and manipulative and controlling.. Or maybe it’s Pluto retrograde bringing those qualities to the surface. But whatever it is, this morning that rage burns on.. I sat and thought about all the ways I was going to wipe out the Islamic pests who are are now bringing the world into mass war on so many violent fronts. What will happen is everyone else on the planet will get fed up, fueled by emotions, and start one massive war against Islam and Muslims.. and it will not end well..till all of them are wiped out.
Is that what the Islamic people want? A whole world at war against them? Are the terrorists honestly so stupid as to think their Allah is going to protect them all against such odds? Is this a mass self-inflicted extinction of Islamic people in progress?
Perhaps their God should be annihilated. Yeah, am not going to wage on people, I’ll take it to their god..and wipe that being out.. Well..not me..but my own Gods & Goddesses will.
These thoughts have raged through my head . Last night and this morning.. I could feel it twisting in me, turning me to the dark side of the force. .. I could possibly invoke every dark being out there and send it all their way..and more.. wipe them all out..
And that would make me the most evil man in history..with genocide of a kind under my belt…will it not?
This is what bombing a few churches so far away on a tiny island that I have not set foot on for 35 years does. It turns one good Witch into the worst witch possible.. undoing 2 decades of good community work and service I have done.
All gone in a flash.. if I let it.
Luckily for me.. Louisa is in my life…! (She is my partner).
She listened patiently to my angry rants… and slowly started to feed positivity into my head.. She spoke of changing minds of people.. she spoke of working to bring world peace..for real…not just talking about it.
And a bit of sanity began to surface in me.. and I thought…Yes.. I’ll use magic.. to change minds (excuse me, am still under the influence of the Pluto-retrograde!). Then when she started talking more about Peace… I began to think of Earth day and how we held hands around a big tree and wished for Peace in all the worlds.. and of World Peace Day.. and what we can do…not just on that day..but at every event, every ceremony, every gathering, every social..!
We don’t need guns or missiles. We have the ability to do Magic! Its power in our hands, hearts and minds. Lets use it.. before rage makes monsters of us all.
Right from the beginning..I have struggled intuitively to get behind this latest movement for saving the planet.
I’ve had some strong personal views which could be construed as rebelling against the rebels.. (bear in mind I’ve been doing eco-magic and campaigning, participating in eco-causes, protests, fundraisers – for many many years..). I’ve finally started to have dialogues with a few close friends on this matter, trying to understand – no this new movement for an existing cause – but my self, and why I intuitively feel detached or not involved in it.
I’ve studied the websites, the symbol, seen enough graffiti on walls of London, stuck postcard posters on bus stops.. read about it on articles, read friends’ facebook posts and personal accounts.. politely said no to their invites to go join these protest events and more.. (bit also magically welcomed and supported some of the XR participants at my ritual, and offered subtle advise on using magic.. for further their efforts for success).
Matters such as the very name `Extinction Rebellion’ and their symbol, and their urban vandal/gang-like activities bother me.
Maybe I am tired of it all after 20+ years of it, maybe my own personal life circumstances have changed my focus. Maybe my age itself and lacking physical stamina deters me?
I’ve put off doing this write-up for a while.. knowing that once I do, my views become open to all to read, interpret, engage, align with or argue against! It will alienate people..my views.. people who thought I am one of them will see me in a different light.. be a bit shocked, annoyed, disappointed, disgusted, angry even. But strangers and friends who feel the same way as me but have been cautious or afraid to voice it will be relieved an get behind me..(that will make me a figurehead for a Rebel against Rebellion.. But it does not mean that I am opposing the desperate need for action to save the world.. That cause remains).
So let me get to some of my transpersonal and magical concerns about this XR movement.
1. Name “Extinction Rebellion”
Catchy and emotive.. and easy for the masses to get behind with. But what is it actually saying..? Unless someone explains it… what does it mean if you just heard the phrase `Extinction Rebellion’ ? What is the call for action? Are you a rebel calling for Extinction? Oh yes.. that meaning is there too.. Its ambiguous.. and can muddle up the subconscious mind.. like the example of someone shouting `DON’T Look’ (nearly anyone who hears it will turn and look…human nature). Blessings such as `May you never hunger’ subconsciously enforce the action words …and in this case, `You’ and `hunger’ . Never is a word that gets lost in the language of the emotive subconscious mind. A better blessing – one I campaign for – is `May you have good food’.
So now look at the phrase `Extinction Rebellion’ again.
What is it telling your deeper mind when you are not thinking about it consciously?! `Go get extinct’?
In my view, a better phrase could have been `Rebel against Extinction’ (yes okay that’s clunky.. but it is not ambiguous). Or better still..find a name that does not use the negative word `Extinction’ !! Take a leaf ..nay a whole tree from `Green Peace’.. no words in there that have any negative connotations..but they take action.. campaign..protest…(sometimes, not-peaceful protect!).
2. The Symbol.
At a first glance, when it first started to appear on social media etc, I ignored it…thinking it was some weird pop-band sign. It vaguely reminded me of the Rune Daeg (morning/ new dawn) sideways. I did not equate it to a hour glass…(and I am normally obsessed with time.. time travel…etc. It should have occured to me..but it did not).
An hour glass has an important feature missing from their symbol..the actual sands of time..!
Perhaps a little cross-line to indicate it would have made that clear. Or even 2 lines.. the bottom of the glass showing it full..and top of it showing it almost empty.. That would show that time is running out.
I bring 2 other previous use / misuse of magical symbols here to aid your pondering.
a) the CND peace symbol..(Campaign for Nuclear Disarmament) shows what I can only see as an upside down Algiz (protection) rune. Whatever it may symbolise..it has a downfacing protection rune. Everytime it is used..in every flag and poster.. its’ enforcing thee idea of `no/ weak protection’ 😦
b) The swastika symbol- used by Hindus and Pagans…and appropriated by Hitler to be a magical power symbol for Nazi cause. None of us pagans and Hindus like it…but look at the evidence of how a magical symbol used can power a cause. That was used for evil.. But we in the here and now can use good magical symbols for important earth saving causes.
The hour glass of sand running out is not exactly a good magical symbol.. if it is going to keep reinforcing the idea of that. Just like the upside down Algiz/ protection symbol used for world peace’ everywhere that still has not produced world peace, the time running out hour glass symbol is only going to enforce that ..and not actually giving the world more living time! (note: I myself have used the Hour glass over Earth’ symbol in Gaian Times magazine I edit.. but started using hands holding Earth’ as a more positive eco-symbol.)
3. The graffiti approach
As I started to see central london walls with the Extinction Rebellion symbol being graffitied, in amongst other ragged and seedy sex posters, it just all felt very dirty.. and only thing it was triggering in my educated mind was associations of gang signs and vandalism! Gangs and Vandals are the ones who just go about defacing public places with such graffiti. A proper `saving the planet from extinction’ movement should not be doing the same!
For the uneducated.. I don’t mean those without schooling- but those with no knowledge of who the Extinction Rebellion’ is, these symbols on london walls are just going to look like dirty or scary gang symbols.. The people will just walk on… quickly..away from such territorial gang spots’ lest they were intruding some inter-gang location wars.. !
And as for the masses of repeat postcard sized posters ..with big symbol and some tiny writing’ being stuck to bus stops .. again..all I could think about was `pop band promotions in Camden’ (Camden is a north london town where alternative lifestyle/ people…like goths, heavy metal guys and girls, tourists abound).
I mean, what sensible person standing on a bus stop is going to risk leaning over and read such a poster? I would not..in case others think am reading about some gang or pop group.. and get judged’. Okay I personally don’t care about that.. but others might nit want to be associated with unauthorised posters stuck on bus stops!
It’s about perceptions.. and judgements by our fellow man and fellow women.
Thus far, I’ve only written about the `problems’ I have perceived personally.. or rather how the XR movement’s publicity has intruded into my life..which I had kept a distance from.
Of course I am educated in the whole matter.. but so far its been me playing Devil’s advocate. Why? Because that will be the line the Government & majority of Politicians, and authorities and Media will be doing.
Now let me look at my worries..!
4. possible Burn outs & Fad days
The Extinction Rebellion movement didn’t just rise over night! There has been a slow deep development. The organisers’ are not just dirty hippies’ ( a phrase a news paper referred to). The organisers are clever, educated and well-organised people, who have been plotting and planning it all for months… maye years. And they have brought this to a global level of awareness, with methodical build up over many months.
I am pleased for that – that its all emotive and peaceful..and has got everyone – many exhausted and despairing eco-carers, campaigners, protestors – all excited! Am happy that the fire of rebellion is spreading from the old activists (the converted) to envelope and gather others who have been uninvolved so far..(the non-converted).
But my worry is one of burn out.. and peaking too soon.. before the work is done.
Its easy to be a short term activist – jump on a cause or an eco-bandwagon, and run wild with others, and feel you are doing some good. Or some may even do it as a `rite of passage’ – harking back to the 60’s and 70’s.. This is their Hippie days… to be lived an then peel off and work on work, career and al that – where these XR days will be just a massive social media photo album to show off to their kids..?!
Yes the build up has been slow and steady…but look at all the peace marches & protests that has already been?
March for Climate Change! ran for few years…still does…I think…But it’s stopped hitting my own awareness window. Either I am a fraud who has left that bandwagon after few years, or maybe it’s just burnt out and I don’t hear much about it.. If so.. why? Maybe because life is busier than ever.. and so many more causes are fighting for social media publicity spot in our awareness… that it all just blends into one hazy mass that we can’t relate to anymore.
What about the Occupy London movement? I was there at St.Paul’s Cathedral.. in those days.. So were many of my friends. I went regularly..and many camped out.. But few years since then… what has it achieved, other than as being a historical foot note or a small paragraph like this on a blog post? Sad but a reality I must blast open.
We..well I don’t want the Extinction Rebellion movement to become yet another foot note..of something that was just a flash in the pan! Even a year long activity is still a flash in the Historical pan of hundred years…!
The XR movement has to do better.. Okay yes it has punched a massive awareness hole in the hard wall of stagnating system… woken people up..made them passionate..and involved.. and maybe even confused. But it has to have a long term plan.. to change the world – unless of course, creating a shock wave was the objective. In which case, XR has just about done it. Well done.
But as a long term eco-carer, a magical practitioner, an earth Goddess (Gaia) worshipper and honorer of the planet, as an ongoing eco-magician who is working it in my own other ways, I want more.. much more. I want to save the planet – for my own selfish reasons.. so that it can still be here for my nephews, and for my kids.